I don't deny. I'm a very sensitive and negative thinking person. I do not know how to express my feelings in front of my parents and they thought I don't put them at the first place. But actually I did, maybe they dun agree with this.
[THEY] said I took my house as hotel. sneak in to my room and sleep once I came back from work. I don't talk to my parents or sistas. Doing the same things every single day. Treating them badly every single second. I am sorry to put them in to trouble. [SHE] said treating them nicely and going home everyday is not a Duty and I agree with that. But I'm afraid to go home, I don't face them, talk to them or eat with them. I do everything on my own since don't know when. I am lost with no directions, no aim. I spend every day blindly. I'm like a body with no soul.
I'm not from a wealth family but at least [THEY] provide us education. I've been studying hard when I was in primary school and scored nice result for the UPSR exam. My result is just nice to enter a private chinese high school but I refused to go there. [THEY] force, scold and do all source of things but I said NO. I choosed a goverment high school with all kind of different person, the biggest mistake I made ever. I was totally regret on that but there's no one to blame except myself and I.
Everything is fated. I've been walking on the wrong path for so so many years. It's too late to realised everything. I want to turn back, but it's too late. When [THEY] totally gave me up, I've got no HOPE.
I've been spending my life blindly. Whenever I think about all these, I'm totally exhausted. I have no way to express my feeling at least self-harm works, sometimes. Hah, stay under the same roof, eat the same dishes, speak the same language but we behave in a different way and I'm the one who behaves the worst among them.
What comes around, goes around. Put myself in a hectic lifestyle just to forget the past tense. I am not doing great now and I totally don't know what the hack happen to me. Darn! I'm not happy when my boy is not around. We had arguments few days ago but at least he knows how to hug me in to his arms and say I'm sorry.
But my problem is still there and it annoys me like how I annoyed my boy. Life only come once and it's not easy but I fuck up everything in my life with the stupid high-school mentality (immature). That's why I'm not happy. I can't do anything with the past tense but I should learn how to be good in my future. It's my responsibility to be my parent's good daughter and my boy's good girl. Sometimes we should pretend to be a happy person. We need to smile, this is life.
People say life is like a story book. We are the author for it and seems like everyone owned a very nice story book except me. how sad is that? My story book is blank. I have nothing can allow me to proudly announce. When other ask about me, I have nothing to tell. My brain goes blank. This is my story in these 19 years. It sucks till the max!
But my problem is still there and it annoys me like how I annoyed my boy. Life only come once and it's not easy but I fuck up everything in my life with the stupid high-school mentality (immature). That's why I'm not happy. I can't do anything with the past tense but I should learn how to be good in my future. It's my responsibility to be my parent's good daughter and my boy's good girl. Sometimes we should pretend to be a happy person. We need to smile, this is life.
People say life is like a story book. We are the author for it and seems like everyone owned a very nice story book except me. how sad is that? My story book is blank. I have nothing can allow me to proudly announce. When other ask about me, I have nothing to tell. My brain goes blank. This is my story in these 19 years. It sucks till the max!
Been a long time I didn't blog. It's because of I am horribly busy. If you want me to list out what I've done, I am sorry that I can't cause I don't even know what I am doing in these few weeks. So, just forget about it. Hah!
Going to have my company first launch and also charity fashion show on middle of August. It's hard to run an event without everything. name list, sponsor, venue, and so on. We have nothing in our hands especially money. But we have done half of it, how great about that? Com'on, we are only 19 and done it all by ourself just to run a CHARITY fashion show so we do wish everyone can help us on this event. Bring more friends on the actual day. We thank you.
By the way, I realised that we have to do everything just to make this project done. Sweet talk to those you may dislike and bla bla. Gosh, so sad. Hmm, the meaning of being alive.
We may fail in this project but at least we tried. Support us. And kindly call me if there's inquiries.
Going to have my company first launch and also charity fashion show on middle of August. It's hard to run an event without everything. name list, sponsor, venue, and so on. We have nothing in our hands especially money. But we have done half of it, how great about that? Com'on, we are only 19 and done it all by ourself just to run a CHARITY fashion show so we do wish everyone can help us on this event. Bring more friends on the actual day. We thank you.
By the way, I realised that we have to do everything just to make this project done. Sweet talk to those you may dislike and bla bla. Gosh, so sad. Hmm, the meaning of being alive.
We may fail in this project but at least we tried. Support us. And kindly call me if there's inquiries.
May, 25, 2009
Another boring month I could say. Work, eat, sleep. hmm, meaningless life :(
Anyway, just have my 2nd Facebook account done. okay, I had my first account done and I abandon it for don't know how many years because I don't know how to use it. Facebook is too complicated and I would rather use Friendster. but now seems like everyone playing Facebook then give another try :) and, ta-daa.. Successful. The first time I feel good to be in Facebook members. So I'm using only one Facebook account and one Friendster account :)
Thanks for being so great darling :) I love you......so.....so......much. mwah
Another boring month I could say. Work, eat, sleep. hmm, meaningless life :(
Anyway, just have my 2nd Facebook account done. okay, I had my first account done and I abandon it for don't know how many years because I don't know how to use it. Facebook is too complicated and I would rather use Friendster. but now seems like everyone playing Facebook then give another try :) and, ta-daa.. Successful. The first time I feel good to be in Facebook members. So I'm using only one Facebook account and one Friendster account :)
Thanks for being so great darling :) I love you......so.....so......much. mwah
May, 24, 2009
Girls sometimes should learn to be a bitch. Go and see those girls who are rich, carrying super branded bags then show off. I give you a damn! If you earn the clean money by your own, then applause for being so great. I'm now getting 'older' and my life is no longer school, family and classmates. when you're working and you get more chances to look at different people earn money by using different way. I've seen a girl doing dunno what job. pour beer for those MAN who are sitting and hugging the girl beside them. The man can kiss them, hug them and even smack their bum bum. oh my gawd. I was like? Is the world changing so damn fast?
I'm not them and I don't understand their feeling. but is okay if you do need a big amount of cash then what to do since there's good offer? but I've also seen those who are happy and proud to do that. what so proud about that? You go and shop Gucci, LV, Prada but at the mean time you're doing something very shameful. I don't know. but my mom would definitely kill me if I did something like this.
btw, different people with different life. I can just do my best :)
Girls sometimes should learn to be a bitch. Go and see those girls who are rich, carrying super branded bags then show off. I give you a damn! If you earn the clean money by your own, then applause for being so great. I'm now getting 'older' and my life is no longer school, family and classmates. when you're working and you get more chances to look at different people earn money by using different way. I've seen a girl doing dunno what job. pour beer for those MAN who are sitting and hugging the girl beside them. The man can kiss them, hug them and even smack their bum bum. oh my gawd. I was like? Is the world changing so damn fast?
I'm not them and I don't understand their feeling. but is okay if you do need a big amount of cash then what to do since there's good offer? but I've also seen those who are happy and proud to do that. what so proud about that? You go and shop Gucci, LV, Prada but at the mean time you're doing something very shameful. I don't know. but my mom would definitely kill me if I did something like this.
btw, different people with different life. I can just do my best :)
May, 17, 2009
Doing nothing at home and I've sent my resume to J-Link models agency. Hope that I can work there as an agent or bla bla bla but definitely not being a part of their models cause I know I would fail. pengsan!
Read through Belinda Chee's blog and I found this out - Pangkor Laut Resort
Doing nothing at home and I've sent my resume to J-Link models agency. Hope that I can work there as an agent or bla bla bla but definitely not being a part of their models cause I know I would fail. pengsan!
Read through Belinda Chee's blog and I found this out - Pangkor Laut Resort
Wedding & Honeymoons. so sweetand nice scene ever.
I can only upload this cause the accommodation's picture is so small. Go and visit the site. http://www.pangkorlautresort.com/index.htm
May, 15, 2009
'Those who call others Bitch are the real Bitch'. I will never call others Bitch because I'm not, lol. B for Bitch :) Not revenge, not quarrel, not whatever. but it shows don't mess up with me, I've gone through so many obstacles and I'm still here. so.... You mess up with the wrong person :)
Don't waste your precious time on my blog. what do you really understand? the world is changes so fast and seems like some of the pathetic princess/prince out there still doing nothing at home and waiting for every beginning of the month and get money from their parents. how sad? I'm not from a wealth family and I can't study aboard as you. but so what? You're educated but being rude at all the time. Those who doesn't say HELLO when they pick up the phone and straight away bla bla bla - RUDE :)
You are from wealth family and you just sit down there and open your mouth. we're not the same excuse me. I've to fight for what I want, I've been working since when I was 15. so if you don't understand that I'm carrying burden, then you're not my true friend. but, I don't wish to be a friend with pathetic princess cause she's forever right! No one else can go against her. She says YES then you need to say yes.
Hmm, if you think I'm rude then up to you cause I don't study aboard and I don't know your so-called-manners. but, I thank you for helping. and I totally regret on that. :) Going to have my lunch. Chiao pees
'Those who call others Bitch are the real Bitch'. I will never call others Bitch because I'm not, lol. B for Bitch :) Not revenge, not quarrel, not whatever. but it shows don't mess up with me, I've gone through so many obstacles and I'm still here. so.... You mess up with the wrong person :)
Don't waste your precious time on my blog. what do you really understand? the world is changes so fast and seems like some of the pathetic princess/prince out there still doing nothing at home and waiting for every beginning of the month and get money from their parents. how sad? I'm not from a wealth family and I can't study aboard as you. but so what? You're educated but being rude at all the time. Those who doesn't say HELLO when they pick up the phone and straight away bla bla bla - RUDE :)
You are from wealth family and you just sit down there and open your mouth. we're not the same excuse me. I've to fight for what I want, I've been working since when I was 15. so if you don't understand that I'm carrying burden, then you're not my true friend. but, I don't wish to be a friend with pathetic princess cause she's forever right! No one else can go against her. She says YES then you need to say yes.
Hmm, if you think I'm rude then up to you cause I don't study aboard and I don't know your so-called-manners. but, I thank you for helping. and I totally regret on that. :) Going to have my lunch. Chiao pees
May, 15, 2009
hmm, good week ahead I could say :) breath in fresh air after so many problems. and I hate a girl, she's talking to me so darn rude. anything to do with you girl? if it's not, then don't bother me. thank you very much, mwah.
quarrel with darling so often. but, he's still that sweet. jealous huh? Hah!
bad news bad news bad news! something is wrong with my neck and some of them said it's thyroid. oh my GOD! I need to go for blood test on tomorrow. DOUBLE oh my god, pain pain pian. it's so darn farking pain lor. hopefully it's not thyroid. god bless -_-"'
hmm, good week ahead I could say :) breath in fresh air after so many problems. and I hate a girl, she's talking to me so darn rude. anything to do with you girl? if it's not, then don't bother me. thank you very much, mwah.
quarrel with darling so often. but, he's still that sweet. jealous huh? Hah!
bad news bad news bad news! something is wrong with my neck and some of them said it's thyroid. oh my GOD! I need to go for blood test on tomorrow. DOUBLE oh my god, pain pain pian. it's so darn farking pain lor. hopefully it's not thyroid. god bless -_-"'
May, 11, 2009
went to look for Faiszal [he's my darling punya sayang] dang! he's getting better now after something happened. hmm, glad to see that.
I supposed to wake up at 8.15am and go for breakfast with mua boy. but you know what? I woke up at 10am. I've got 14 missed calls and 3 msgs from him. he came to my house, then went in to my room and pushed me. I was like huh, why are you here. then, he got angry for half an hour cause he's waiting for me in the car for more than 1 and a half hour. sorry.
hmm, I'm searching for love quote. simply in love with that. let me show you some which is perfect.
went to look for Faiszal [he's my darling punya sayang] dang! he's getting better now after something happened. hmm, glad to see that.
I supposed to wake up at 8.15am and go for breakfast with mua boy. but you know what? I woke up at 10am. I've got 14 missed calls and 3 msgs from him. he came to my house, then went in to my room and pushed me. I was like huh, why are you here. then, he got angry for half an hour cause he's waiting for me in the car for more than 1 and a half hour. sorry.
hmm, I'm searching for love quote. simply in love with that. let me show you some which is perfect.
- when you decide to love, allow it to grow. when you promise to love, refuse to let it go. love is a painful risk to take. only love makes you cry and only love knows why.
- when you love someone, they become part of you. Maybe that is why it hurts so much when you lose someone you love because you lose a part of yourself.
- Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her
- When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams.
- The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else.
- If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it dosent, then it was never meant to be.
- Falling in love is awfully simple, but falling out of love is simply awful.
- Rather than love, than fame, than money, give me truth.
- There may be many flowers in a man's life, but there is only one rose.
- You know you truly love somebody when they hurt you so badly, but all you can think about it is the times when they made you smile.
- True love doesn't have a happy ending because true love doesn't end.
so romantic :)
May, 10, 2009
Happy Mother's Day to every dearest mom. I've got so much to tell, so let's go.
Happy Mother's Day to every dearest mom. I've got so much to tell, so let's go.
- First day of my holiday -when I was eating my dinner, a friend of mine rang me up and said he got something which is very funny to tell. then I said okay. do you know what the hack is that FUNNY thingy? he says : I msg your mom and scold her (because of something). DANG! I was like....what the hell? and he even scolded my bf is not a guy. Then I said if he's not a boy, you're not even a man fucker. wah, I was so mad. and the day after that day, I read his blog and another DANG! he wrote : Please don't be so kiddo anymore and let me got the chance to tease you. hmm, who do you think you are? since you did all these shits, you're no longer friend of mine. he spoilt my mood and I throwed my phone in hubby's car. now my phone giler edy. zzz
hubby went out together with my whole family. hmm, it should be a very good time but not actually. forget about it.
May, 07, 2009
just reached home. went for holiday 3 days 2 night for FREE! lol, I enjoyed myself. but Home Sweet Home.
I've got so much to tell but not now cause I want to watch Meteor Garden. update later or maybe tomorrow. chiao
just reached home. went for holiday 3 days 2 night for FREE! lol, I enjoyed myself. but Home Sweet Home.
I've got so much to tell but not now cause I want to watch Meteor Garden. update later or maybe tomorrow. chiao
May, 04, 2009
hmm, I'm tired to drag myself in to trouble anymore. sick of it :(
as a human being, never and ever simply take any strangers as your friend. you don't know when will they backstab you, or whatever. there's always two faces in every human - angel and evil. who gonna help you without getting benefit from it am I right? why should they help you if they don't get somethng good in return? that's why, human, the selfish an sucks [animal] in the world. so, only trust yourself.
when you get famous and rich, there's no more friends beside you. it doesn't mean that they don't want you, the matter is you don't take them as friend anymore cause you can't even get a lil benefits from them. so? human human human. benefits is THAT important? I don't think so.
we need help and at the mean time, we're helping them. be good to everyone cause you don't know when you need help from them. can you tell me who can DONE a case or thing or whatever without help? I never believe in that. whenever I want to get a thing done, there's always something pop up and I messed up everything. dang!
hmm, I'm tired to drag myself in to trouble anymore. sick of it :(
as a human being, never and ever simply take any strangers as your friend. you don't know when will they backstab you, or whatever. there's always two faces in every human - angel and evil. who gonna help you without getting benefit from it am I right? why should they help you if they don't get somethng good in return? that's why, human, the selfish an sucks [animal] in the world. so, only trust yourself.
when you get famous and rich, there's no more friends beside you. it doesn't mean that they don't want you, the matter is you don't take them as friend anymore cause you can't even get a lil benefits from them. so? human human human. benefits is THAT important? I don't think so.
we need help and at the mean time, we're helping them. be good to everyone cause you don't know when you need help from them. can you tell me who can DONE a case or thing or whatever without help? I never believe in that. whenever I want to get a thing done, there's always something pop up and I messed up everything. dang!
May, 03, 2009
I've reached the entries of 100. lol, I'm a hyperactive blooger :)
urmm, his bday and we went to celebrate in the hotel and you know what? we don't get to take any pictures. not even ONE, how funny is this? his birthday is only like this, no birthday cake, no birthday song.
to be continue
I've reached the entries of 100. lol, I'm a hyperactive blooger :)
urmm, his bday and we went to celebrate in the hotel and you know what? we don't get to take any pictures. not even ONE, how funny is this? his birthday is only like this, no birthday cake, no birthday song.
to be continue
May, 02, 2009
darl's birthday. he's officially turned to 19. hmm, half teen and half adult? going to celebrate with him tomorrow. I'm no longer that excited cause of he said I'm asking useless, goddamn questions.
I'm so sick of everyone. there's two faces in everyone. angel and devil. but I'm looking at those devil face most of the time. shittsss
once again, happy birthday. but he wouldn't realise this I think cause h's no longer interested in this blog.
darl's birthday. he's officially turned to 19. hmm, half teen and half adult? going to celebrate with him tomorrow. I'm no longer that excited cause of he said I'm asking useless, goddamn questions.
I'm so sick of everyone. there's two faces in everyone. angel and devil. but I'm looking at those devil face most of the time. shittsss
once again, happy birthday. but he wouldn't realise this I think cause h's no longer interested in this blog.
May, 01, 2009
urrm, darling's birthday which is on tomorrow. another few hours to go. but he's going to find his customer at Kepong right after his work so I'm not the first one who meets him up and give him a big hug and say [happy birthday]. how sad?
btw, I can't wait till tomorrow. giggles :)
urrm, darling's birthday which is on tomorrow. another few hours to go. but he's going to find his customer at Kepong right after his work so I'm not the first one who meets him up and give him a big hug and say [happy birthday]. how sad?
btw, I can't wait till tomorrow. giggles :)
April, 28, 2009
darl's birthday which is on this saturday. hmm, can't wait for something but I don't know what am I waiting for. I dunno what am I talking. chaotut = blur (gucci's language) I also dunno what's that. but they said is blur then okay la.
I found something which is meaningful. let me show you
如果你不爱一个人，请放手，好让别人有机会爱她
如果你爱的人放弃了你，请放开自己，好让自己有机会爱别人
有的东西你再喜欢也不会属於你的，
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的，
人生中有许多种爱，但别让爱成为一种伤害。
有些缘分是注定要失去的，有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的，
爱一个人不一定要拥有，但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱他。
男人哭了，是因为他真的爱了；
女人哭了，是因为她真的放弃了。
如果真诚是一种伤害，我选择谎言；
如果谎言是一种伤害，我选则沉默；
如果沉默是一种伤害，我选择离开。
如果失去是苦 你怕不怕付出
如果迷乱是苦 你会不会选择结束
如果追求是苦 你会不会选择执迷不悟
如果分离是苦 你要向谁倾诉，
好多事情都是后来才看清楚，好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦，
然而我已经找不到来时的路 。
有一种爱,明明是深爱,却说不出来.
有一种爱,明明想放弃,却无法放弃 (this is for my dearest friend)
有一种爱,明知是煎熬,却又躱不开.
有一种爱,明知无前路.心却早已收不回来.
决定放弃你的那一刻我哭了，我的眼泪证明了我是真的很爱你。
什么是勇气？
是哭着要你爱我，还是哭着让你离开。
男人的自信来自一个女人对他的崇拜，
女人的高傲来自一个男人对她的倾慕。
永远不要栽培你爱的男人，你把他栽培的太好,结果只有两个：)
他从此看不起你或他给人偷了。
追求一个人的手法不需要太聪明，但离开的手法必须聪明绝顶！
为什么我们总是不懂得珍惜眼前人？
在未可预知的重逢里，我们以为总会重逢，
总会有缘再会，总以为有机会说一声对不起，
却从没想过每一次挥手道别，都可能是诀别，
一声叹息，都可能是人间最后的一声叹息。
也许爱情只是因为寂寞，需要找一个人来爱，即使没有任何结局。
伤口是别人给予的耻辱，自己坚持的幻觉。
发现自己只能爱一个人在一瞬间。
而且渐渐变的自私。很多人不需要再见，因为只是路过而已。
遗忘就是我们给彼此最好的纪念。
爱可以是一瞬间的事情，也可以是一辈子的事情。
每个人都可以在不同的时间爱上不同的人
hmm, I simply like this. girls is just so simple. they need your to pamper and also your love. duh, I truely dunno what am I talking about :(
darl's birthday which is on this saturday. hmm, can't wait for something but I don't know what am I waiting for. I dunno what am I talking. chaotut = blur (gucci's language) I also dunno what's that. but they said is blur then okay la.
I found something which is meaningful. let me show you
如果你不爱一个人，请放手，好让别人有机会爱她
如果你爱的人放弃了你，请放开自己，好让自己有机会爱别人
有的东西你再喜欢也不会属於你的，
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的，
人生中有许多种爱，但别让爱成为一种伤害。
有些缘分是注定要失去的，有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的，
爱一个人不一定要拥有，但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱他。
男人哭了，是因为他真的爱了；
女人哭了，是因为她真的放弃了。
如果真诚是一种伤害，我选择谎言；
如果谎言是一种伤害，我选则沉默；
如果沉默是一种伤害，我选择离开。
如果失去是苦 你怕不怕付出
如果迷乱是苦 你会不会选择结束
如果追求是苦 你会不会选择执迷不悟
如果分离是苦 你要向谁倾诉，
好多事情都是后来才看清楚，好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦，
然而我已经找不到来时的路 。
有一种爱,明明是深爱,却说不出来.
有一种爱,明明想放弃,却无法放弃 (this is for my dearest friend)
有一种爱,明知是煎熬,却又躱不开.
有一种爱,明知无前路.心却早已收不回来.
决定放弃你的那一刻我哭了，我的眼泪证明了我是真的很爱你。
什么是勇气？
是哭着要你爱我，还是哭着让你离开。
男人的自信来自一个女人对他的崇拜，
女人的高傲来自一个男人对她的倾慕。
永远不要栽培你爱的男人，你把他栽培的太好,结果只有两个：)
他从此看不起你或他给人偷了。
追求一个人的手法不需要太聪明，但离开的手法必须聪明绝顶！
为什么我们总是不懂得珍惜眼前人？
在未可预知的重逢里，我们以为总会重逢，
总会有缘再会，总以为有机会说一声对不起，
却从没想过每一次挥手道别，都可能是诀别，
一声叹息，都可能是人间最后的一声叹息。
也许爱情只是因为寂寞，需要找一个人来爱，即使没有任何结局。
伤口是别人给予的耻辱，自己坚持的幻觉。
发现自己只能爱一个人在一瞬间。
而且渐渐变的自私。很多人不需要再见，因为只是路过而已。
遗忘就是我们给彼此最好的纪念。
爱可以是一瞬间的事情，也可以是一辈子的事情。
每个人都可以在不同的时间爱上不同的人
hmm, I simply like this. girls is just so simple. they need your to pamper and also your love. duh, I truely dunno what am I talking about :(
April, 28, 2009
went for yum cha with Henry. we talked alot and he's still the same - he loves his 6 years relationship gf as much as before. hmm, how I wish I've got such a caring and lovely bf. I still remember the last time we met, we had our breakfast at Subway and we din talk much. but this time we talked so lot.. his gf is just so hang fuk. dang!
the word of - LOVE. who can tell the exactly meaning of LOVE? we had been cried, struggled and all that just because of the word of love? then could you imagine how strong the power is?
hmm, there's so many perverts out there and there's someone msg me at MSN and you know what the hack he told me? he said everyone out there are watching my friend's sex video. I dun need to elaborate her name here but at least I told my friend this case and she din even reply mw. so what to do? non of my business then.
went for yum cha with Henry. we talked alot and he's still the same - he loves his 6 years relationship gf as much as before. hmm, how I wish I've got such a caring and lovely bf. I still remember the last time we met, we had our breakfast at Subway and we din talk much. but this time we talked so lot.. his gf is just so hang fuk. dang!
the word of - LOVE. who can tell the exactly meaning of LOVE? we had been cried, struggled and all that just because of the word of love? then could you imagine how strong the power is?
hmm, there's so many perverts out there and there's someone msg me at MSN and you know what the hack he told me? he said everyone out there are watching my friend's sex video. I dun need to elaborate her name here but at least I told my friend this case and she din even reply mw. so what to do? non of my business then.
April, 26, 2009
went for the karaoke session @ Time Square New Way together with darling. hmm, I'm having fun there. I need to pamper myself once in a while since I've started my hectic life. but I want to be busy busy busy. dang!
and when we were on the way back, there's an accident happend at dunno what highway. we saw so many [police car's light] so then we thought they are having road-block and I'm so nervous lo thou I never did something wrong *wink*. but then when we passed by, we saw a car moved up-side-down which means the tyre is facing up. omg, hak sei ngor. and this incident tells everyone HAVE TO drive carefully. hmm, really dangerous :(
went for the karaoke session @ Time Square New Way together with darling. hmm, I'm having fun there. I need to pamper myself once in a while since I've started my hectic life. but I want to be busy busy busy. dang!
and when we were on the way back, there's an accident happend at dunno what highway. we saw so many [police car's light] so then we thought they are having road-block and I'm so nervous lo thou I never did something wrong *wink*. but then when we passed by, we saw a car moved up-side-down which means the tyre is facing up. omg, hak sei ngor. and this incident tells everyone HAVE TO drive carefully. hmm, really dangerous :(
April, 25, 2009
we are back on the track again :) happy happy. he said dun wish to lose me. darl brought me to EDEN for dinner and the meal was perfecto! thou the prices is slightly higher than the normal steak house, darl said worth it.
hmm, woke up at 9am because I'm going out for breakfast with darl. but then, he msg me and said he needs to fetch his granny to visit doctor. so... nvm la :)
we are back on the track again :) happy happy. he said dun wish to lose me. darl brought me to EDEN for dinner and the meal was perfecto! thou the prices is slightly higher than the normal steak house, darl said worth it.
hmm, woke up at 9am because I'm going out for breakfast with darl. but then, he msg me and said he needs to fetch his granny to visit doctor. so... nvm la :)
April, 23, 2009
sad sad sad :( I feel like screaming now. struggle! from the morning till just now 10.30pm, we know how many sentence we talk to each other? hmm, it doesn't consider as sentence perhaps. only words. ONLY nine words during this ten sumthing in the morning till ten sumthing in the night - 你在哪里? ok. 我不懂. I will forever remember this 9 words and also today. so pity huh me? since everything comes like this, how do you want me to control my tears?
I don't mind let go since he's so sad when we were together but he dun even bother whether we can be friends or not. twice sad. if I'm not mistaken, we quarrel is because of his birthday and you know what? just now he told his mum that he's not going home on 1st of may cause he's going to celebrate with his friends. triple sad. btw, who am I to talk so much and bother his life? shut up bitch!
爱与罚-张智成
空气凝重到可怕
像全身上下 被涂满厚厚的脏泥巴
动不了 躺不下 这种感觉仗著寂寞
会放大 慢性的谋杀
爱你清晰的可怕
都怪我放不下
还拼命在心里面磨擦
任它痛 任它刮 我该继续装聋作哑 还是抗拒 深爱的代价
爱情的伟大
不害怕你的践踏
就算输光了筹码 还有美好回忆能抵押
爱情的伟大 是种原谅的升华
何不用真心祝福来代替惩罚
爱你清晰的可怕
都怪我放不下 还拼命在心里面磨擦
任它痛 任它刮 我该继续装聋作哑 还是抗拒 深爱的代价
爱情的伟大 不害怕你的践踏
就算输光了筹码 还有美好回忆能抵押
爱情的伟大 是种原谅的升华
何不用真心祝福来代替惩罚
爱情的伤疤 很难完美的包扎 但心里放了拒马 幸福怎能继续往前跨
爱情的伟大 是种原谅的升华 何不用真心祝福来代替惩罚 我爱你 越诚恳越不会被惩罚
sad sad sad :( I feel like screaming now. struggle! from the morning till just now 10.30pm, we know how many sentence we talk to each other? hmm, it doesn't consider as sentence perhaps. only words. ONLY nine words during this ten sumthing in the morning till ten sumthing in the night - 你在哪里? ok. 我不懂. I will forever remember this 9 words and also today. so pity huh me? since everything comes like this, how do you want me to control my tears?
I don't mind let go since he's so sad when we were together but he dun even bother whether we can be friends or not. twice sad. if I'm not mistaken, we quarrel is because of his birthday and you know what? just now he told his mum that he's not going home on 1st of may cause he's going to celebrate with his friends. triple sad. btw, who am I to talk so much and bother his life? shut up bitch!
爱与罚-张智成
空气凝重到可怕
像全身上下 被涂满厚厚的脏泥巴
动不了 躺不下 这种感觉仗著寂寞
会放大 慢性的谋杀
爱你清晰的可怕
都怪我放不下
还拼命在心里面磨擦
任它痛 任它刮 我该继续装聋作哑 还是抗拒 深爱的代价
爱情的伟大
不害怕你的践踏
就算输光了筹码 还有美好回忆能抵押
爱情的伟大 是种原谅的升华
何不用真心祝福来代替惩罚
爱你清晰的可怕
都怪我放不下 还拼命在心里面磨擦
任它痛 任它刮 我该继续装聋作哑 还是抗拒 深爱的代价
爱情的伟大 不害怕你的践踏
就算输光了筹码 还有美好回忆能抵押
爱情的伟大 是种原谅的升华
何不用真心祝福来代替惩罚
爱情的伤疤 很难完美的包扎 但心里放了拒马 幸福怎能继续往前跨
爱情的伟大 是种原谅的升华 何不用真心祝福来代替惩罚 我爱你 越诚恳越不会被惩罚
April, 23, 2009
broke up with the chun boy. we are officially end now. so sad :( you know what? I've been telling him break up whenever we quarrel and he said NO. we quarrel yesterday he said [FINE, break up la then] omg, I was like...... huh?
btw, if break up can bring him happiness and freedom so why can't I do it? as what others always say, we don't need our lover to stay beside us every minutes. we only want them to be happy and we're happy. hmm, but I'm still so sad. he said I can't contact him or see him anymore. I rang him just now for so many times but no one pick up my call. disappointed huh?
hmm,as long as he's happy. wish him luck
broke up with the chun boy. we are officially end now. so sad :( you know what? I've been telling him break up whenever we quarrel and he said NO. we quarrel yesterday he said [FINE, break up la then] omg, I was like...... huh?
btw, if break up can bring him happiness and freedom so why can't I do it? as what others always say, we don't need our lover to stay beside us every minutes. we only want them to be happy and we're happy. hmm, but I'm still so sad. he said I can't contact him or see him anymore. I rang him just now for so many times but no one pick up my call. disappointed huh?
hmm,as long as he's happy. wish him luck
April, 23, 2009
luckily he rang me back and [ku bou]
hmm, there's another feeling in my heart, but I don't know how to tell. hmm, forget it
luckily he rang me back and [ku bou]
hmm, there's another feeling in my heart, but I don't know how to tell. hmm, forget it
April, 23,2009
lol. I've already decided - not to celebrate his birthday with him. he's now with one of his friend yum-cha-ing. he DID NOT give me goodbye kiss when I left his car. and I'm so damn hell stupid thought that he's shy to do it infront of his friend and will send me a sweet message. but twice damn hell, he only send me this message - you rest early a, drink more water. message recieved on 11.23pm Wednesday. third damn hell, I was so so wrong. as what people says, an immature lil girl always make the wrong decision. so jimat oh him? even lou po or darl also lazy to type. good. very good. applause :)
I've got enough. and you know what? we watched ghost movie just now and I'm always the one who wants to watch but I'm afraid of it. and he did the best ever decision. I screamed whenever there's something appear. and he just gave me a glaring face. omg. to those girls who wants to be his gf in the future, please don't even talk to him when he's watching movie. he will breaks your heart into half on that moment.
maybe you people feels like I'm angry on him or scolding him. but actually I'm not. I'm just too sad on what he did. I'm just so cheap who always ran to him. I'm a bitch perhaps :) I don't heart him anymore (eventhough I miss him always). I must keep myself away from him. not to meet up with him for a week, then a month, then a year, then forever cause I know once I meet up with him, I will run back to his side which will brought me sadness like now. I want to be alone, honestly.
lol. I've already decided - not to celebrate his birthday with him. he's now with one of his friend yum-cha-ing. he DID NOT give me goodbye kiss when I left his car. and I'm so damn hell stupid thought that he's shy to do it infront of his friend and will send me a sweet message. but twice damn hell, he only send me this message - you rest early a, drink more water. message recieved on 11.23pm Wednesday. third damn hell, I was so so wrong. as what people says, an immature lil girl always make the wrong decision. so jimat oh him? even lou po or darl also lazy to type. good. very good. applause :)
I've got enough. and you know what? we watched ghost movie just now and I'm always the one who wants to watch but I'm afraid of it. and he did the best ever decision. I screamed whenever there's something appear. and he just gave me a glaring face. omg. to those girls who wants to be his gf in the future, please don't even talk to him when he's watching movie. he will breaks your heart into half on that moment.
maybe you people feels like I'm angry on him or scolding him. but actually I'm not. I'm just too sad on what he did. I'm just so cheap who always ran to him. I'm a bitch perhaps :) I don't heart him anymore (eventhough I miss him always). I must keep myself away from him. not to meet up with him for a week, then a month, then a year, then forever cause I know once I meet up with him, I will run back to his side which will brought me sadness like now. I want to be alone, honestly.
April, 22, 2009
I'm so sad. quarrel with hubby so often and hubby seldom click in to this website. no longer the lovey dovey couple. how sad? he don't even bother me whether I'm death or still alive. it's so darn hard to live under this kind of situation. struggling so hard. but you people know me. I won't leave him unless he says break up.
sometimes I was wondering why am I so stupid want to grab his time from his colleague? He's just too busy.
I'm so sad. quarrel with hubby so often and hubby seldom click in to this website. no longer the lovey dovey couple. how sad? he don't even bother me whether I'm death or still alive. it's so darn hard to live under this kind of situation. struggling so hard. but you people know me. I won't leave him unless he says break up.
sometimes I was wondering why am I so stupid want to grab his time from his colleague? He's just too busy.
- 1st of may - he wants to celebrate his birthday with his Gucci colleague
- 2nd of may - his birthday and I tried so hard then only get this day. you understand? hmm, he did not offer me / tell me that he wants to be with me on that day. this is heart broken
- 3rd of may - his colleague wedding dinner
I was asking myself why don't you go and watch concert on your own since he doesn't thought that want to offer you that day. I garb it back on my own. he did not offer me anything. I've already decided to stay at home or go and watch concert on that day. wait until he's totally free and no more dates then only go for dinner with him. the action he made this few days really disappointed me. I believe in he's changing, so fast. I can't follow his foots steps. its so tiring.
you know what? he even said don't meet everyday and he's tired if he finished work at 10pm. back then, he always rang me and asked me get eady cause he's coming to bring me out for supper. when we were still [new], he msg me non-stop. talk alot at MSN but now few sentence then he said he's tired already. what can I do? he wouldn't know how I feel cause guys don't bother girls's feelings. how I wish I could get back to the days when we were not together yet. how enjoyable and happy cause there's someone out there cares you more than you did. but now? lol. I swear I will only meet up with him twice in a week. it starts from today onwards. he did so many things which can broken my heart so then I can only be like this. if it would helps then would be great. if not then just forget it.
there's no colour in this post cause I'm not happy. I would rather be single better than in this kind of relationship. struggle!!!
April 21, 2009
finally, I can breath in the fresh air. watched Confession of a Shopaholic alone. nice movie thou, it's quite boring at the first but getting more interesting and romantic when they broke up cause of the [David Smith]. correct me if I spell the wrong name.
and yea. guess what? It's the superwoman's 24th Birthday - Leng Yein. she's the toughest woman I've seen. whatever she speaks can be a quote. how powerfull is that? but there's also someone hate her very much like how much they hate me and posted nasty comments on my chat box. I just don't understand, we don't bother each other's business. back then? there's so many nasty comments!
the fallen angel. she's always that sexay so its pointless to post her sexay photo. i love this picture very much. she's just wonderful. Happy Belated Birthday Ms.Leng
April, 17, 2009
darling shows me his tears. he crys like a kid. my pity boy. but I'm not the one who makes him cry. I'm always good to him :) [shits].
the reason : secret [ fark], lol.
for those who always think that I use [money like water] and loves to shopping. please tidy your mindset again. I'm not. don't misunderstand everyone. btw, think whatever you want to. I can't stop you.
darling shows me his tears. he crys like a kid. my pity boy. but I'm not the one who makes him cry. I'm always good to him :) [shits].
the reason : secret [ fark], lol.
for those who always think that I use [money like water] and loves to shopping. please tidy your mindset again. I'm not. don't misunderstand everyone. btw, think whatever you want to. I can't stop you.
April, 16, 2009
today might be my happiest day in the whole April. and I decided to add some colours to my blog. I've been editing my blog to only two colours - Black & White. there's no colour in this year 2009.
and let me tell this. no one is trustable. and they won't even give you a fark if they can't get benefits from it. everyone will doubt on everyone. friends and even family. we will doubt on each other. but I'm always the stupid one who always believe in the wrong person. only allow yourself to trust those who are trustable. but I don't trust anyone else now. they said they can keep secret but in the end the whole wide world knows. and bla bla bla. fark! trust yourself :)
today might be my happiest day in the whole April. and I decided to add some colours to my blog. I've been editing my blog to only two colours - Black & White. there's no colour in this year 2009.
and let me tell this. no one is trustable. and they won't even give you a fark if they can't get benefits from it. everyone will doubt on everyone. friends and even family. we will doubt on each other. but I'm always the stupid one who always believe in the wrong person. only allow yourself to trust those who are trustable. but I don't trust anyone else now. they said they can keep secret but in the end the whole wide world knows. and bla bla bla. fark! trust yourself :)
April, 14, 2009
I don't know how to celebrate darling's bufday. it's on second of may and also the date of Lee Hom Music Man concert. I gave up my so-called-hubby's concert. and it shows that how much I love darling.
darling's friend really 'mm sek zou'. He asked darling to go out clubbing on 2th of May. excuse me, gf or family is always the first one. but luckily darl smart enough. He said cnt. lol. so happy :)
btw, I must get hubby a bday pressie la. he aims for Bottga Veneta sling flip bag, lol. darl, give me 2 years time :)
I don't know how to celebrate darling's bufday. it's on second of may and also the date of Lee Hom Music Man concert. I gave up my so-called-hubby's concert. and it shows that how much I love darling.
darling's friend really 'mm sek zou'. He asked darling to go out clubbing on 2th of May. excuse me, gf or family is always the first one. but luckily darl smart enough. He said cnt. lol. so happy :)
btw, I must get hubby a bday pressie la. he aims for Bottga Veneta sling flip bag, lol. darl, give me 2 years time :)
April, 12, 2009
quarrel with mummy in the morning once I woke up. the very first time I fight back. I still remember that I only crying while she's scolding.
honestly, I feel like want to stay on my own. got my own room and own space thou I know it's kinda difficult without anyone but sumtimes when you're tired enough but once you got home have so many annoy sounds, I would rather stay outside till everyone went to sleep. you are not me so you just don't understand me. so, don't judge me :)
went to Lounge 75 just now and they played those romantic songs. I cried while I'm eating my toast. so funny? not really. it shows that I'm sucks in controlling my tears.
quarrel with mummy in the morning once I woke up. the very first time I fight back. I still remember that I only crying while she's scolding.
honestly, I feel like want to stay on my own. got my own room and own space thou I know it's kinda difficult without anyone but sumtimes when you're tired enough but once you got home have so many annoy sounds, I would rather stay outside till everyone went to sleep. you are not me so you just don't understand me. so, don't judge me :)
went to Lounge 75 just now and they played those romantic songs. I cried while I'm eating my toast. so funny? not really. it shows that I'm sucks in controlling my tears.
April, 11, 2009
today I realised so many things in the world. sumthing bad also sumthing good.
there's a [bunch] of malays fighting once after I left monorail. wah, so 'dek yan geng' and one of that guy nearly hits me. luckily got a malay girl pull me away. not being pathetic but malay guys loves to fight am I ryte? especially at sg.wang or during any festival. faint lorr.. really 'hak sei ngor'.
I walked alone and I found that the meaning of being a [human]. I saw few mommas holding their children's hand and walk together. now even babe can wear GAP. so 'hang fuk'. when I sat on the bench and there's two couples cam-whoring in front of me. so sweet. I was sitting alone and looking no where. I dunno what I want and I think so much about [that].
I cried for so many times because of same case. I'm sad :(
today I realised so many things in the world. sumthing bad also sumthing good.
there's a [bunch] of malays fighting once after I left monorail. wah, so 'dek yan geng' and one of that guy nearly hits me. luckily got a malay girl pull me away. not being pathetic but malay guys loves to fight am I ryte? especially at sg.wang or during any festival. faint lorr.. really 'hak sei ngor'.
I walked alone and I found that the meaning of being a [human]. I saw few mommas holding their children's hand and walk together. now even babe can wear GAP. so 'hang fuk'. when I sat on the bench and there's two couples cam-whoring in front of me. so sweet. I was sitting alone and looking no where. I dunno what I want and I think so much about [that].
I cried for so many times because of same case. I'm sad :(
Thursday, 09, 2009
went to cousin brother's house @ Kota Damansara to visit the new born babe - HanaSky. meet up with my niece Selena and also Sierra.
nothing special with the babe coz all the new born babe is almost the same right? but I bet she's another beauty. Selena was so darn cranky. tak boleh tahan -_-"
I miss my hubby very much.
went to cousin brother's house @ Kota Damansara to visit the new born babe - HanaSky. meet up with my niece Selena and also Sierra.
nothing special with the babe coz all the new born babe is almost the same right? but I bet she's another beauty. Selena was so darn cranky. tak boleh tahan -_-"
I miss my hubby very much.
April, 07, 2009
I've got so many things need to settle. I've got so many problems :( but, whenever I meet up with hubby then every problems gone. so it proves that my hubby always there for me to settle my problems :) hurray!
went into Gucci (I forgot when already). I tried on clothes and watches and heels and bags and rings. I'm waiting for Gucci sales. Hopefully I can grab at least one item during the sales :) lolz
this is so darn nice :) love it
hubby and I. it's real diamond on the ladies watch :) both of these watches cost a fortune (to me)
I've got so many things need to settle. I've got so many problems :( but, whenever I meet up with hubby then every problems gone. so it proves that my hubby always there for me to settle my problems :) hurray!
went into Gucci (I forgot when already). I tried on clothes and watches and heels and bags and rings. I'm waiting for Gucci sales. Hopefully I can grab at least one item during the sales :) lolz
this is so darn nice :) love it
hubby and I. it's real diamond on the ladies watch :) both of these watches cost a fortune (to me)
April, 02, 2009
I'm not happy because of so many things happened in out of sudden. and everyone seems like not in the mood or in the problem. but, things will fade away soon. how I wish it will end immediately, but...
I really dunno what to do. I'm so sad now but he wouldn't know.
I'm not happy because of so many things happened in out of sudden. and everyone seems like not in the mood or in the problem. but, things will fade away soon. how I wish it will end immediately, but...
I really dunno what to do. I'm so sad now but he wouldn't know.
April, 02, 2009
I want Gucci new Jackie.. so darn darn nice :)
I saw Ken just now. He just came back from S'pore for few days and today is CB Fong's birthday, wish him happy birthday. Ken is the best man I've seen in my life. no jokes. if you got him, be proud coz this kind of guy is hard to get.
and babe gave me a white rose justnow. He got it from his store and maybe some of you think that it's rubbish which others dun want. but I'm happy because he gave it to me but not other girls. lolz :)
let me posted some pictures in the next post when I got it from hubby. Happy April Fool everyone :)
I want Gucci new Jackie.. so darn darn nice :)
I saw Ken just now. He just came back from S'pore for few days and today is CB Fong's birthday, wish him happy birthday. Ken is the best man I've seen in my life. no jokes. if you got him, be proud coz this kind of guy is hard to get.
and babe gave me a white rose justnow. He got it from his store and maybe some of you think that it's rubbish which others dun want. but I'm happy because he gave it to me but not other girls. lolz :)
let me posted some pictures in the next post when I got it from hubby. Happy April Fool everyone :)
April, 01, 2009
Peeps, please don't drop any nasty comments again if you don't like me. You guys floated my chatbox. as I always say, I accept critism in polite way :) Be good to me and I will be good to you babeh.
how I wish I can get a Gucci handbag :) but, forget about it.
Peeps, please don't drop any nasty comments again if you don't like me. You guys floated my chatbox. as I always say, I accept critism in polite way :) Be good to me and I will be good to you babeh.
how I wish I can get a Gucci handbag :) but, forget about it.
March, 31, 2009
end of the month again. someone out there might having fun but there's also someone working like mad. life is just like that...so, yea. fight for what you want babe!
but someone out there might being a biatch and left stupid comments at someone's page. this is wasting time. as you said you hate me lot but why do you still here? don't you think what you say is really funny and bitchy? grow up babeh. God bless ya.
I'm darn darn sleepy so going to continue this tomorrow. another day to go. again and again. good night
end of the month again. someone out there might having fun but there's also someone working like mad. life is just like that...so, yea. fight for what you want babe!
but someone out there might being a biatch and left stupid comments at someone's page. this is wasting time. as you said you hate me lot but why do you still here? don't you think what you say is really funny and bitchy? grow up babeh. God bless ya.
I'm darn darn sleepy so going to continue this tomorrow. another day to go. again and again. good night
March, 30, 2009
[give me some space!].. I hold him too tight am I? this is the second time he told me this. he's totally different today. the very first time he yells at me and tell me all source of words with hard feeling. feel like want to cry but I can't and I won't.
I want to train myself to become easy-come-easy-go type. I'm tired of arguement and I'm exhausted :( and I'm sure he felt the same too because I'm a worst gf in the whole wide world. how long can we stand on this?
[give me some space!].. I hold him too tight am I? this is the second time he told me this. he's totally different today. the very first time he yells at me and tell me all source of words with hard feeling. feel like want to cry but I can't and I won't.
I want to train myself to become easy-come-easy-go type. I'm tired of arguement and I'm exhausted :( and I'm sure he felt the same too because I'm a worst gf in the whole wide world. how long can we stand on this?
March, 27, 2009
Hubby and I recalled back the first time when we were together. the first time we hold each other's hands. the first time I got his kiss on my forehead and so on. we are just too lovely when we are in PEACE :)
we knew each other since form 3. but we never talk to each other because of a misunderstand case. we were chatting on MSN and before we got to bed...he said
Hubby : Don't tell anybody [our school mates] that we know each other
Me : Okay
just because of this. and until that day I asked him about why don't he comes to me earlier and he said I'm cool enough. and what I replied is [ You asked me act like I didn't know you]..
this is how our story begin. God shows us the meaning of love and finally we got together :) love you hubby. do you love me?
Hubby and I recalled back the first time when we were together. the first time we hold each other's hands. the first time I got his kiss on my forehead and so on. we are just too lovely when we are in PEACE :)
we knew each other since form 3. but we never talk to each other because of a misunderstand case. we were chatting on MSN and before we got to bed...he said
Hubby : Don't tell anybody [our school mates] that we know each other
Me : Okay
just because of this. and until that day I asked him about why don't he comes to me earlier and he said I'm cool enough. and what I replied is [ You asked me act like I didn't know you]..
this is how our story begin. God shows us the meaning of love and finally we got together :) love you hubby. do you love me?
March, 26, 2009
quarrel with him for dunno how many times in a day.
he asked me why am I smiling. I looked at something and keep smiling :) there's actually two reasons.
quarrel with him for dunno how many times in a day.
he asked me why am I smiling. I looked at something and keep smiling :) there's actually two reasons.
- I MUST always keep smiling infront of him or we will quarrel again just because of he thought I'm showing him smelly face.
- I recalled back when the times we were first together. We were always that sweet and lovely during those days but now no longer. quarrel always because tiny lil things. who's fault? both of us
We had two faces. everyone ask for the good one but we need to think deeply. Are we giving out the good one before we ask for it?
March, 25, 2009
I'm no longer a lucky girl. I met perverts twice in a day.
I was walking and suddenly there's a guy came forward and ask me about direction. and after I told me, I felt like he wants to walk closer to me and you know what? He said [are you wearing a brown colour bra? It's so nice] fcuk him up!
I was on the escalator and a [bunch] of bloody malay guys was just looking at my so-called-longkang and said [moi, sexy a. wow] I damn you!
what happend to these people? world is changing so fast. at least my hubby is still that normal. love him :) I'm lucky enough to get him beside me. love me love me hubby!
I'm no longer a lucky girl. I met perverts twice in a day.
I was walking and suddenly there's a guy came forward and ask me about direction. and after I told me, I felt like he wants to walk closer to me and you know what? He said [are you wearing a brown colour bra? It's so nice] fcuk him up!
I was on the escalator and a [bunch] of bloody malay guys was just looking at my so-called-longkang and said [moi, sexy a. wow] I damn you!
what happend to these people? world is changing so fast. at least my hubby is still that normal. love him :) I'm lucky enough to get him beside me. love me love me hubby!
March, 24, 2009
hubby got his iPhone and he keeps smiling like mad. oh my god, he's addicted to IT's thingy. wanna give him a punch on his face, grr..
quarrel with hubby just now and I'm so sad. he changed alot and I'm worried that I will lose him someday. but he broked my heart into half :( charm lor this time. flirty, happy-go-lucky going to be his attitude soon. I have to stop him.
I'm always the loser in every relationships I've got. winner in a relationship doesn't mean that I dump you first and I'm the winner. I felt that I'm the loser because of the process during every relationships. I'm always the pathetic one who catches my bf tightly,who always call or msg them. I'm doing bf's job and also gf's. this is tiring but who to blame because I asked for it. so, just sigh... yea.
I love my hubby more that anyone expects. but why do he changes in a one month time? I don't really know him now. darling, think about this when u read it. you might don't know that you're changing but the person beside you knows about it. I love you and I don't want quarrel with you that much. it hurts both of us darling.
I don't know what should I do to face this problem :(
hubby got his iPhone and he keeps smiling like mad. oh my god, he's addicted to IT's thingy. wanna give him a punch on his face, grr..
quarrel with hubby just now and I'm so sad. he changed alot and I'm worried that I will lose him someday. but he broked my heart into half :( charm lor this time. flirty, happy-go-lucky going to be his attitude soon. I have to stop him.
I'm always the loser in every relationships I've got. winner in a relationship doesn't mean that I dump you first and I'm the winner. I felt that I'm the loser because of the process during every relationships. I'm always the pathetic one who catches my bf tightly,who always call or msg them. I'm doing bf's job and also gf's. this is tiring but who to blame because I asked for it. so, just sigh... yea.
I love my hubby more that anyone expects. but why do he changes in a one month time? I don't really know him now. darling, think about this when u read it. you might don't know that you're changing but the person beside you knows about it. I love you and I don't want quarrel with you that much. it hurts both of us darling.
I don't know what should I do to face this problem :(
March, 22, 2009
hubby bought me the another version of [Lee Hom-Heart Beat]. I've got the first version but who knows there's another one :( Luckily I've got a caring hubby. this is the matter of luck. lolz..
saw babe Sierra just now. and she's crazy. her [trademark word -what-ever]. there's a conversation between her and her granny (my aunt)...
Granny : Sierra, granny's stomach is so big. I've got babe is it?
Sierra : No, it's not baby. It's FATS!
oh my god, she's so [clever]. btw, we love her.
I miss my hubby very very much. what to do? nvm, I've got his pictures. bleh
hubby bought me the another version of [Lee Hom-Heart Beat]. I've got the first version but who knows there's another one :( Luckily I've got a caring hubby. this is the matter of luck. lolz..
saw babe Sierra just now. and she's crazy. her [trademark word -what-ever]. there's a conversation between her and her granny (my aunt)...
Granny : Sierra, granny's stomach is so big. I've got babe is it?
Sierra : No, it's not baby. It's FATS!
oh my god, she's so [clever]. btw, we love her.
I miss my hubby very very much. what to do? nvm, I've got his pictures. bleh
March, 21, 2009
I tried to get him back and I aksed him to come now.. but he said [sorry, I can't]
I'm tired :(
I tried to get him back and I aksed him to come now.. but he said [sorry, I can't]
I'm tired :(
March, 20, 2009
tomorrow is my darling's big day and I feel like going. I've got a partner few minutes ago but now no more so I still don't know whether I'm going on tomorrow or not. so, everything changes from time to time. don't take anything for granted :)
btw, I wish my darling all the best and be happy forever with her hubby :)
tomorrow is my darling's big day and I feel like going. I've got a partner few minutes ago but now no more so I still don't know whether I'm going on tomorrow or not. so, everything changes from time to time. don't take anything for granted :)
btw, I wish my darling all the best and be happy forever with her hubby :)
March, 20, 2009
it's 4.39am now and I'm widely awake. should be snooring like a pig now but I can't sleep. the stupid dentist, my teeth is much more better before I go for filling. but now getting worst. pain pain :(
quarrel with hubby just now. our first-war since 14th of Feb. he's jealous and me too. I played his gearbox just now and get scolded. he's so damn good when he's in the mood but he can also be so damn bad when he's not in the mood. and yea.... speechless. I dunwant quarrel. He said that I don't love him and I said that he's changed. His temper really.....worst than me. pity me :(
My must do list :
it's 4.39am now and I'm widely awake. should be snooring like a pig now but I can't sleep. the stupid dentist, my teeth is much more better before I go for filling. but now getting worst. pain pain :(
quarrel with hubby just now. our first-war since 14th of Feb. he's jealous and me too. I played his gearbox just now and get scolded. he's so damn good when he's in the mood but he can also be so damn bad when he's not in the mood. and yea.... speechless. I dunwant quarrel. He said that I don't love him and I said that he's changed. His temper really.....worst than me. pity me :(
My must do list :
- get myself a new phone
- get hubby pressie (secret)
- pamper myself
- trim and dye my hair (again! duh)
- ask someone to get me a new bag but I prefer Gucci bag. ( lolz, evil me)
- buy a super duper nice gorgeous preety heels
- I want a red colour hairband from Evita Peroni
- get my P license
- love hubby more than before
March, 17, 2009
took lot of picturs wf hubby and now only i realised that he willings to take photo :) good boy. but am not going to upload all because I looked so ugly in most of the pictures. fed-up.
another long long way to go after these 4 days. sis going to sunwany lagoon tomorrow and I feel like want to join but i'm damn broke! so just forget about it :)
anyway, hubby gave me one of his photo and it looks so cute. it melts my everybody's heart. it's true
took lot of picturs wf hubby and now only i realised that he willings to take photo :) good boy. but am not going to upload all because I looked so ugly in most of the pictures. fed-up.
another long long way to go after these 4 days. sis going to sunwany lagoon tomorrow and I feel like want to join but i'm damn broke! so just forget about it :)
anyway, hubby gave me one of his photo and it looks so cute. it melts my everybody's heart. it's true
March, 17, 2009
damn it, I worked for my friend on 14th of Feb untill now I still haven't get the cheque yet. I need the cheque to survive.
bad luck, bad luck, bad luck. I knocked my head and I hurt my legs. so damn pain when I take my shower. almost cry :(
damn it, I worked for my friend on 14th of Feb untill now I still haven't get the cheque yet. I need the cheque to survive.
bad luck, bad luck, bad luck. I knocked my head and I hurt my legs. so damn pain when I take my shower. almost cry :(
March, 15, 2009
went to cousin brother's house for swimming. played with baby Sierra and you know what? hubby played with her too. we are all in the swimming pool. now got sunburn and get scolded by daddy because I'mm having light fever now :)
hubby kissed the lorry's ass because of he's looking at me and we are telling each other about our so-called-dream. he's a careless driver. this is my third time car accident. poor thing
recently addicted to Taylor Swift - Love story. hubby sang the chorus to me once while we are in the car. sweet :) :) he's my prince and I'm his princess.
went to cousin brother's house for swimming. played with baby Sierra and you know what? hubby played with her too. we are all in the swimming pool. now got sunburn and get scolded by daddy because I'mm having light fever now :)
hubby kissed the lorry's ass because of he's looking at me and we are telling each other about our so-called-dream. he's a careless driver. this is my third time car accident. poor thing
recently addicted to Taylor Swift - Love story. hubby sang the chorus to me once while we are in the car. sweet :) :) he's my prince and I'm his princess.
March, 13th, 2009
Economy recession. It does effect me alot because I've got no plan B. but due to my life is like that, nothing special. Though it effects me alot, others can't see.
I'm not those bling bling princess from a wealth family. It doesn't allow me to drive daddy's BMW ( my dad don't have BMW), doesn't allow me to carry mummy's LV bag ( my mum don't have a LV bag ), doesn't allow me to spend RM 1k per one day shopping ( I don't have RM 1k at all), doesn't allow me to get anything I want. and that's why you can't see me at those ballroom with pure white piano in the center. I can't appear at those places, I can't breath. I have low self esteem.
Economy might be like this throughout the year. I don't know how to survive. for those who are wasting money like nothing. today you're top of the world but tomorrow you might be up-side-down. save!
Economy recession. It does effect me alot because I've got no plan B. but due to my life is like that, nothing special. Though it effects me alot, others can't see.
I'm not those bling bling princess from a wealth family. It doesn't allow me to drive daddy's BMW ( my dad don't have BMW), doesn't allow me to carry mummy's LV bag ( my mum don't have a LV bag ), doesn't allow me to spend RM 1k per one day shopping ( I don't have RM 1k at all), doesn't allow me to get anything I want. and that's why you can't see me at those ballroom with pure white piano in the center. I can't appear at those places, I can't breath. I have low self esteem.
Economy might be like this throughout the year. I don't know how to survive. for those who are wasting money like nothing. today you're top of the world but tomorrow you might be up-side-down. save!
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